What am I?

I'm Japanese. I'm not good at English...but I'll try. I have a problem...I'm a lesbian. I realized that when I was 9. Those days, I had a close friend. One day, she sat astride me in jest. But I felt my cheeks turn in red and got completely flustered. At that moment, I realized that I loved her. She said nothing after that, but she showed her love many times, holding my hands, looking into my eyes, or saying "We are lesbians!" like it's just a joke .I'm convinced that we loved each other, but we couldn't say "I love you", because the word "lesbian" means "a strange woman who can't love a man" in Japan. Our relationship broke few years later. Now I'm 18, my mother started to say that I must consider my future, especially marriage. I can't love a Man as a lover, I love a GIRL! But I can't tell that because my father, mother, brother are all homophobia. I don't want to hack my hair, wear men's or behave like a boy. I just want to follow my heart. What do you think of me? What should I do?

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ask her out.

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"One day, she sat astride me in jest. But I felt my cheeks turn in red and got completely flustered. At that moment, I realized that I loved her"

It doesn't take much for you to fall in love does it

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Your not good at English, yet you typed all that?

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be a proud lesbian

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I think you should put some restrains on your heart and listen to your reason. "You are a woman so do what you are supposed to do as a woman not a boy"

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go for it do what makes you happy who care what people think about you? like iv gone threw it all im a bi right? its tough at times but i made it threw but go for it

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Do what your heart says. Only you can make the choice of how you live your life good luck and God bless

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Follow your heart :) Trust your heart :) Your heart knows what is psycho-emotionally healthy for you :)

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You had one relationship that started at the age of nine and none other since then, and from that you conclude that you are a lesbian?

You are a confused 18 year old that possibly needs therapy.

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with all my respect .... i don't believe this is a right thing to do...

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Hi I am a filipino i experienced what you had experienced but im different from you...i am a gay. but you know the best advice i can give is that learn to be tru to yourself and learn to accept what God had given you. Many people Didn't understand all about the people like us however i learned that through myself though my heart is saying i should love a man i learn to accept that it is not possible beside i am not created for them. There's no other way to escape this lifetime disease but you must enjoy the most out of it. Every people in the world has the right chance to live just dont give harm to others rather be their happiness. Just stay as you were dont mind the people that trying to get you down.

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If you're a lesbian, then you shouldn't get married. However, I don't know enough about your family and culture to say what you should do.

Could you go to live with a more open-minded relation? Are you still in education? Maybe you should appease your mother by focusing on a career right now. That would also allow you to become independent and not be as reliant on your family.

Whatever you do, don't get married!

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Be who you are and don't care what anyone else thinks!

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Hunny listen to me for one moment... it isn't about what others think of you, it is about how you feel about yourself. I think you are a wonderful person and I only know a little bit about you. If "I" can see this, girrrl, certainly others can.

You just keep followin that little heart of yours.